It never felt like its own thing. The wretchedness of 2009 dragged on with Rick still in the hospital and just happened to become 2010 at some point.
Even the good was unusual. My one semester on campus during senior year was disconnected from the rest of my college experience. I spent junior year happily holed up in the CS House in a comfort zone I’d been in since shortly before the end of my first year. But my core group had been demolished by transfers and graduations. Instead, I finally hung with my awesome pep band people. Weekly dinners, late nights, senior party party.
Summer was mixed. Having my entire high school crew in town most the summer, starting my job (woot employment!). Finding new people to hang with (that shit is exhausting), losing Sheila.
The year is ending at the beginning of what I want for 2011: steady. After the constant stream of unrest, all I’ve wanted is to just be.
The bass plays a vamp. The drummer begins a reverse clave. The piano comes in with the theme. Slowly Horace moves into his solo, keeping his left hand vamp going throughout.
I’m sitting on the couch, with my new (functioning battery!) laptop in my lap, a thesaurus at my side. Letting myself be immersed in the combo’s jam session. Contemplating and writing. No worry. No stress. Just being.
I love it.
reverb10 – One Word:
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you? (Author: Gwen Bell)
Details on this project at www.reverb10.com.